here in my heart...

I don't believe in Love at first sight but I have experienced it thrice that the first time I saw someone, everything stops and there's one thing that comes in your mind "Will you be the ONE?" I am not actually looking for you to love and be loved in return yet I'm willing to accept and risk just for you. That's what my heart desires and once it gets into control it's unstoppable, I never just let this happen it just came and I think that I am ready for it. Once I'm doing something just for you, can't seem to understand why my mind and body suddenly in movement taking out my laziness and stubbornness. It is true that if you love doing it, then you will definitely gonna do it especially if it is for someone you really adore so much. It's clear on my mind the first time we met, I actually looked in your eyes right away thinking what would I feel once I did it because I usually don't do that when talking to someone, I feel this heart beat getting faster and slower and the same time. I can fall in and out of love easily yet this time I don't think it would be easy for me to quit you because my heart knows that part of it is with you. Those moments that I'm with you was unforgettable I believe that I feel afraid, brave, weak, strong, sad and happy simultaneously. It is perceptible that we are far away from each other I don't want that to be the hindrance of what we can have with each other, it is fitting for us to have each other, I'm willing to do whatever I can to show it and fight for it. I am in the disposition of taking the consequences just to show you how much you mean to me and wherever this leads us to, I'm here not just at your back but also by your side only for only one reason, because your here in my heart.

My Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day everyone!

Last Friday, I was with my friends having a get together because my best friend was just here for three weeks, and we would like to at lest have time with each other before he went back to Germany. If you have read my previous post, it states the feeling that I had believing that I would see her, "The Love of my life."

Unfortunately, she didn't make it I didn't even get any replies from the messages I sent to her. All I wanted this Heart's Day was to at least see her I never wanted anything more than that I even don't expect her to love me back as much as I do. It's just so sad that you went crazy for a week so anxious to be with her but all of that didn't occurred.

She is indeed the "Love of my life," so wanted to see her, be with her and show her how I love her but since Love does not expect in return, I never had any expectations from her. Hearing her voice when we called her is enough, though you wanted more yet you still do understand and accept what ever that she could give me.

I may not have a Happy Day on Valentine's, but I'm contented that she's still there as a friend, we even send messages once in a while. But the feeling still remains it will never be undone or go away just like the wind.

A double treat day!

This morning, I prepared and went to Bulacan since I was invited to a birthday celebration of my best friend's mom. Remar, my best friend happens to be here in the Philippines to visit and have his short vacation, it was a decade since the last time we saw him. I was so excited and nervous at first, I don't know what would be the day it was if I we're with him. I know that our childhood back then was extravagant and unique but it was different from today, everything changes but as the day goes along I never noticed any changes from him, it was like we we're back from our childhood. Whitey and Blacky and now back together, that's what they call us when we we're in Grade 5 and we did get used to it. It was ironic that we consider ourselves as best friends yet we only knew a handful of information about each other but then we tend to know more about ourselves once we had the chance to sit and listen and in addition to that I just also met his hospitable family today, they are great very funny and easy to get along as if I was part of them. How we missed each other that you can't even separate him from me or the other way around, laughing and reminiscing the past occurred on our conversation. The day went smoothly being with my best friend and his family, and that proves that he definitely a best friend.

To top it up that really brightens my day is when I called the "Love of my life." I never expected that after a long time, I would hear her voice again I feel like I was floating in air while everything froze except the two of us. Suddenly my heart beats faster and slower at the same time it never took place to any other person rather than her. I feel like God blesses me for hearing her voice, and I was about to see her on Friday together with our old friends. I feel excited and nervous I don't know how to handle this kind of situations especially that I would be with her. Though I don't expect anything from her, which there is really nothing to expect, seeing her smiling is enough. I guess my valentine would be great that at least I'm gonna be with her, hanging out together with our old friends. It's enough for me that I was just appreciated for Love doesn't expect in return.

What a day it was, I'm with my best friend and I talked to the one I love. Indescribable feeling, I would never forget that it happened in my life, the three of us unites again. I hope this won't be and will never be the last...