Happy Birthday Bunso!

Our bunso, Geneva one of the person who brightens up my day, she always wants every moment to be light and funny. I never find her dull or even lonely the only negative things that you can see on her was being bored and to that she always finds way to make the day great and happy. I nice person, very secretive and yet talkative in a funny way sometimes say non sense things that will make you laugh. A very thoughtful person who always gives a smile as she approaches every person and brightens up their day

She never been a totally headache for our family she sometimes commits mistakes and yet mostly been understood, I myself can say that I did misunderstood her before. Got a strong personality and you won't see her cry unless really got hurt, I've seen her in this way and it hurts too on my part because as her older brother, I want the best for her, to live her life happily.

As for her birthday, I wish her the happiness which I don't think she needs because she is happy person. Thank you for always being there to lighten up my day and sometimes makes it bad, hehe.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUNSO!!!

Added resposibility

When I was in studying I haven't had much, contented on what my parents can offer even if I wanted more than what they can give. If I needed an extra money the solution would be work for it, try to find a way how to earn. I have my friends referring me if someone is looking for a computer technician and I thank them for that. That's how I get my extra allowance which I spend just to go online and learn more stuff about computer and it's always been like that. I wanted to have fun and enjoy my teen life but I never had the chance to and that is the reason why as of this moment, I spend me money only just for me though I pay our telephone bill and whether my family needs money, I do share somehow. Yesterday was one of the most pressuring days I had, my mom wanted me to find money for my brother's tuition fee and it gives me a headache. It's actually ok with me to look for a way to earn extra money, what hurts me so is that two weeks ago, she was always reminding me right in front of my face to help her and ready the money for the graduation and I did. She didn't even think of something for her second son going to college, didn't save money and then passing her responsibility to me. I'm not mad at her just got into my nerves not saving money for her salutatorian son. My brother deserves what he wanted, he had proven that he is worthy of choosing the field and school that he wanted and I will support him for that. My mom is always like that, unprepared and then ragging for the solution when the problem occured. Sometimes I think that she is growing backwards, not thinking of the future being a happy-go-lucky mom and we, her family kinda living with that. We did our part and try to change her but she wouldn't hard-headed as her sons and daughter.

I guess that's it, I gotta to do what I gotta to do and help them more than the help I could give. That's the purpose of being a "kuya" share the responsibility of their parents. :D

The love of my life

It's been a year since the last time I felt this feeling of mixed emotions, I got a reply from the person whom I consider the Love of my life after the "Happy Birthday" greeting that I sent. I knew that you would reply after that message and you did, it felt good that finally you had seen me in your cellphone when all of the times I am invisible to you. All the memories flashes back especially the time I first saw you, I can't explain how euphoric I am seeing you while I felt this heart of mine beeting slower and faster at the same time. I never knew that you would mark my heart creating a space right just for you and I can't deny that fact even if I had found someone I'm gonna be with my entire life. It's so rare that we find someone whom we would love the rest of our life and I never thought that it was you I should have seen God's signs I grabbed you tightly without thinking what would be the consequences. I know at first that it was not my intention to love you, but that time we first have the eye contact, everything changes even I changed just for you. I wanted to be the best and prove you that giving me a chance is worth it but you made up your mind, it was too late for me and I know that I haven't done anything to prove how much I love you.

I never regret everything that I did I may not show my feelings through actions but I know from the bottom of my heart that I love you. I don't want to loose you I feel bad every time I think and realize that I will never have you.

In spite of all this I'm still happy that once in my life, I met someone who will be my inspiration and will remind me always to be strong. I hope that your Birthday will be memorable as the day I met you. Thanks for everything. :D

My stagnant mind

What is happening to me? Haven't been updating my blog for almost two (2) months now though a lot of things happened and can be posted here yet my mind is stiff and can't think of anything to write, forgive me. Right now, I'm ready to get this mind and hands to write I miss this, so much. Now, what keeps me from writing? First is my beloved (aw? really?) work, loads of work keeps me occupied and at the end of the day here I am having a hard time to think, I may have lots of chances but I need rest! Next would be my laziness, I do wanted to post but I wouldn't want it to look funny with grammatical errors :D. Third, I am hooked up with a couple of persons whom I thought would built up a good relationship, but I was wrong. Lastly, haven't had the drive to write bacause I don't feel like doing it.

Ow wait, my sister got a rank higher than me in Gunbound, I need to catch up with her. hehe...

Here I am again, ready to spend sometime posting stuff with or without sense. Hehe :D