I'm sorry for those who tried to vote for me

Yesterday was the Employee Appreciation Gala of Ocean Place Resort and Spa where we celebrate our Christmas Party and also including the awards for the past year of 2007. Everyone is so excited and prepared except me, I feel so down because of those people who tried to appreciate what I have done but their votes are just going to be turned down and gone to trash. Around 2nd week of December, Human Resources Department distributed forms to be filled up by employees who wishes to vote for 4 employee of the year. One of my co-worker, Sharon voted for me and I told her not to waste the vote because I know for a fact that I am not qualified since it states in the form that an employee is qualified if they haven't had any bad records for the past six months. I actually don’t have any bad records except for a memo which is given to me with a ridiculous reason, I don't want to elaborate further for it was a past and I don't want to make a big deal out of it.

I don't feel bad for myself, what makes me feel sorry is that I let people down because they are expecting that somehow, my name would be included in the nominated list but as the results came out yesterday... No name under mine is listed and according to others there are names who aren't supposed to be on the nomination list that came out to be in it. I don’t care about those people, who shouldn’t be on the list, what I care about is that I just hope I should have done better for those people who appreciated me.

When I came to work this morning, I heard a couple of people talking about how their vote was wasted and definitely I know they are talking about me. I suddenly felt that I am such a failure not only for them but also for my family even though it's actually not a big deal for me but failing those people who believed and I feel sorry for I haven’t been good enough. However, I wanted to thank them for having faith in me I know that many people hated me but those people who tried to vote for me gave me confidence and they will always be appreciated.