In spite of the problems

Down-fall

I seem to suck on the blog before the previous one, said that I was back from silence and will be updating more about me and what’s going on with my simple and egoistic life. I am currently under life’s pressure where I tend to break-down with the challenges that are taking place that look like a nightmare in which I wanted to wake-up. The things that are going on with my life happen to be the result of the choices I made and I’m pretty bad on choosing because nothing appears to be good.

Most of my friends, colleagues and former co-workers believed in me, on what I could do and what I am yet I can’t see myself as a person they are talking about. I’m not sure who I am any longer, I haven’t done anything to be proud of since the last day I had a job and I’m having a hard time standing up from my failures. All I have done shows nothing, haven’t materialized the plans I had and still got nothing.

I have learned a lot from the past experience but there is one thing I think I wasn’t able to learn, persuasion because I am afraid with everything that’s going on with my life. Fear consumes me and I can’t push myself hard to do things I should have done and in addition to that, fear also affects my decisions. I probably don’t know what to do but I wish and prayed that answers will come out soon.